In search of a baby ug

I'm 38 and my caveman 45. We have been together for 8 years and in search of a baby ug for 6+ years. We had no idea when we began to this journey for our baby ug that the road that we would venture down would be so difficult. We are cursed with unexplained secondary infertility. After 6 early miscarriages-- and two ectopics complete with tube removal and 2 failed IUI's, we are starting IVF #1.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Decisions Decisions

so we decided not to go ahead with the amnio. We weren't going to take any action so why risk it. My last appt my Dr., who is growing on me by the way, was not there so I saw another Dr. let's call him Dr. pushy. He pushed me to have the amnio and changed my next appt to be with him. don't worry i changed it right back. ; ) he also spent longer untangling the ultrasound cords then he spent on the actual ultrasound. Didn't check measurements, heartbeat or anything. Let's just say i will be making sure i don't have to see him again and he is NOT delivering my baby. I go back to see my doc next Tues. I am fine, work is crazy busy and sucks! I can't believe we are at 15 weeks already. It is so amazing....I feel so very lucky.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

this is not good

i knew it was too good to be true.....

Dr.'s office called with the result of the first trimester screening and my chances of having a baby with down's syndrome were 1 in 133 and after the test they are 1 in 22. The decision I have to make is whether to go ahead and have the amnio and with it risk a miscarriage or just forge ahead.

what to do? what to do?

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Week 13

I can't believe this is still happening and so real.

We had the Nuchal Transluncency today and everything looked great. Homi is measuring right on target and has both a neck and nose bone and those are good things. He (I am just referring to the baby as he we don't know for sure yet) is actually starting to look like a real baby. Mr. Ug came too and I had the ultrasound tech let us listen to the heartbeat so he could hear it for the first time :). He wanted a recording...he is so cute....although he would hate that I referred to him as cute he says "babies and puppies are cute" lol.

I am feelling quite fat. I don't really look pregnant yet and all my weight watchers buddies are looking at me sideways in the hall. Especially now that I am not joining the next session. I just don't feel the need to shout it to the world yet and all my coworkers will know soon enough. Clothing just does not look right....pants are not an issue b/c I purchased a few pair and a bella band however what to do about shirts. 90% of my shirts don't fit and the few maternity shirts I have look stupid b/c I have no belly yet. Any suggestion??

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

The P Club

So I had another appt with Dr. Serious yesterday and two really cool things happened. 1. The ultrasound was all outside of my body. No more dildocam Yay!!! 2. I got to hear little Homi's (the nickname we picked short for Hominid) hearbeat. It was surreal. I can't believe there is actually a little baby growing inside of me. Later Mr. Ug asked me if I felt better yet and I do. Not totally ready to join the P club and probably never will be however, I am feeling more confident that we might finally hold our baby ug in March.

Friday, August 10, 2007

All is well.....

So the second appt went well. Dr. Serious is growing on me. We have the same pulmonologist. Baby ug is fine. Heartbeat was 187 and measurements were much better. We could see the head and arm buds....couldn't really see the legs b/c baby is at the very top of the sac. I go back on the 6th for the Early screening ultrasound. I am doing well except for the extreme exhaustion. I go to work and then I am done for the rest of the day. At 9 weeks I already need new clothes. Everything I own is too tight. I have gained 6 pounds since before the IVF which doesn't seem like enough to make all my clothes too small. Hope all you ladies have a great weekend.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Now What?

I had my first OB visit last week. I will call her Dr. Serious. She seems ok so far. She is willing to let me forgo the amnio and cvs if I want due to the increased risk of miscarriage and my history. She is also willing to let me do a vbac however I am not so sure I want to risk that either. The good thing is she has a sonogram machine in her office and I will get one every visit. The bad thing is the machine does not like my uterus, it is tilted backwards or something. The baby's heartbeat was 140 but the measurements were off so i go back tomorrow. She was very matter of fact and not very reassuring that things are ok. Her dating and Dr. G's dating differ by a few days. She has me at 8 wks 3 days and according to Dr. G I am 8 wks exactly today. I am very nervous about the appt. I am spotting a bit today although there have been 3 or 4 days over the last 3 weeks
where I spotted a bit so I am trying really really hard not to freak out and just wait for the appt tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

It;'s official

I am 6w 1d today and there is a sac and a flicker of a heartbeat. We are overjoyed. No more words....maybe later.