In search of a baby ug

I'm 38 and my caveman 45. We have been together for 8 years and in search of a baby ug for 6+ years. We had no idea when we began to this journey for our baby ug that the road that we would venture down would be so difficult. We are cursed with unexplained secondary infertility. After 6 early miscarriages-- and two ectopics complete with tube removal and 2 failed IUI's, we are starting IVF #1.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

It;'s official

I am 6w 1d today and there is a sac and a flicker of a heartbeat. We are overjoyed. No more words....maybe later.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Twilight Zone

First the important stuff:

2nd beta 637
3rd beta 1366

1st (ob!) ultrasound 7/25

I feel like i am living an old twilight zone episode. saturday and this morning when I went in to the re for the blood draw all the nurses were smiling and giggling and saying congratulations. I wanted to tell them ok SCREAM for them to stop. Tell them that didn't they know who i was and only bad things happen to me and i learned a long time ago that positive beta doesn't always equal baby. I don't know I guess I should be more excited I just can't allow myself that luxury right now. maybe some day.....

Friday, July 13, 2007

The easy part is over..... or is it?

sorry i haven't been keeping up...i have been too busy having a nervous breakdown. However,
at 12dp6dt the number is 321. Next beta is saturday. I am happy with that and trying not to get caught up with what if and what's next.

Mr. Ug is convinced that it worked and my shitty tubes were the problem before and while i can agree for the 2 ectopic for the other m/c's not so much. So again i feel like i have the weight of letting him down on my shoulders.

Now for the freaky friday the 13th it could only happen to me.

This morning I was walking to work and some asshole on a bike screamed at me in spanish from behind me. I think he was hitting on me? Well there was a hole that looked about 1 or 2 feet deep to my right and i jumped in to get out of the way of the lunatic and my left leg went into a hole up to my mid-thigh. I am scraped and bruised really sore and freaking out that this might cause a problem. Let's hope the day gets better and not worse.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Here we go.....

Transfer was saturday. We had 6 embies make it to blast and transferred 3 and froze the other 3. The embryologist said they all looked so good that he had a hard time ranking them. After the transfer Dr. G said "now don't go having triplets now" and we were like now you tell us. As if! We will be lucky if one decides to stick around.

I went in today for E2 and progesterone and they want me to take Estrace.....Amy thinks that is the drug that made her crazy. Let's hope I have better luck. I am already out of my mind as it is.

I am out of work until monday...wanted to stay home and relax....work is really crazy right now so I didn't want the extra stress.

Beta is next thursday...wish me luck!