In search of a baby ug

I'm 38 and my caveman 45. We have been together for 8 years and in search of a baby ug for 6+ years. We had no idea when we began to this journey for our baby ug that the road that we would venture down would be so difficult. We are cursed with unexplained secondary infertility. After 6 early miscarriages-- and two ectopics complete with tube removal and 2 failed IUI's, we are starting IVF #1.

Friday, July 07, 2006


5 the number of pregnant women in my office.

4 the number of years we have been trying.

3 the number of miscarriages i have had since ttc with Mr. ug and the number of women on maternity leave.

2 the number of women on maternity leave that have had baby #2 since we started ttc and the number of women pregnant with an "oops baby".

1 the number of broken hearts i have.

after learning about pregnant woman #5 today at lunch i shut the door to my office and cried for 20 minutes until my asshole officemate busted in without knocking.

why does this have to be so hard.....why?

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

The big bad black hole

Is beginning to consume me......and I hate that. I hate what this whole process has done to me. Even Mr. Ug is saying I am taking his job as the grumpy and pessismistic one.

So the appt with Dr. G went well. He believes I ovulate too soon and that is why the IUI's did not work. He says I ovulate when my Estrogen hits 200 and that is waaay too soon. He is suggesting we add L*upron into the mix to fix this problem. We are attempting to get approval to go ahead with IVF and if not we will do another IUI first.